Zack. you made your mommy and daddy better

I have fallen in love with my husband all over again.

I've often heard how a newborn baby, in the best of circumstances, can add stress to a marriage or cause trouble between a couple.
It's been the opposite for us. (See how lucky we are?!)

As the contractions started to wear on my body and mind in the days and hours before Zack was born, Scott's patience and the gentle rubbing of my back and reassuring me of how much it would all be worth it made it that much better.

When we were admitted to the hospital and knew our baby would be born that day, our smiles and giggles in those couple of hours Saturday afternoon made me feel like a little kid again.

Then, when there was a decision to have a C-section, I looked at Scott with fear rising in my throat. He smiled, nodded and looked so strong that I couldn't help but be strong myself.

As my body started shaking in the operating room, partially from nerves and partially from the effects of the drugs and anesthesia, Scott came into the room, petted my head and held my hand. I was calmed. I was a warrior.
Then, when the announcement was made that they were pulling the baby out, Scott leapt out of his chair and peered over the blue curtain in front of me. Such a proud papa already.

When I was in recovery, he came strolling in with pictures of our baby from the nursery and the news of his size and actions. Proud again, but also bringing me into the action.

When we went to bed that night, my body aching, morphine wearing off and exhausted from not sleeping in a few days, Scott kissed me and told me he was proud of me. He was proud of me! It made my heart soar.

And then, the evening we found out about Zachary's diagnosis, Scott and I talked in the dark, holding hands and sharing thoughts. I asked Scott what hurt him the most. He said he hurt for me. He said it didn't seem fair everything I had gone through for this baby and how badly the news must be hurting me and how strong I had been so far.

At that exact moment, I knew our love knew no end. I knew we could overcome anything. And I knew that as much as I loved him in that moment, my love for him would only continue to grow as we weaved in and out of the crazyness of life.

You see, Zachary allowed us to fall in love all over again. Zachary is the newest bond that cements our friendship and that deep-rooted sense of being soulmates that I truly believe in.

I am so proud of Scott.
I love seeing him with his son.
And he gives me strength and love that I never thought possible.

I am lucky and blessed.